I found this list of Thought Provoking Questions (literally, that’s the title of the image) on Pinterest. The first question is one that I’ve been thinking about for a couple days now: “At what point are we good enough? When are we self improved enough to accept ourselves?”
I started talking about being content in my last blog on the 16th. It’s been a minute since I’ve written, mostly because I’ve been busy, but also largely because I’ve been pondering the notion of being “content” of experiencing life as “good enough” and accepting it for what it is. This project for me, this blog, is one way that I’m trying to push myself. I want to write. I want to get better at writing. I want to force myself to make writing a priority. But what if I stopped trying to push myself so hard? What if I breathed deeply and accepted life for what it is and floated along with the current instead of trying to create waves of my own?
I don’t think that I’ll stop writing. I feel like when I write, thoughts tumble out that I might not get to experience otherwise. It’s a pause, a moment of reflection that I think is missing from many life moments. I wish I could have slowed down our wedding. I wish I could have looked everyone in the eye and thanked them for being there. I wish that Skyler and I could have kissed more slowly that evening, paused in the ecstasy of being with one another. But most of life is like our wedding: quirky, magical, stressful, dramatic, too quick. And most of life, like our wedding, is filled with so much that we can’t pause to think, “Life is beautiful.”
Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs came up in a conversation the other day when I was talking to someone about teaching. It made me think of the hierarchy for a few days. At the base of the hierarchy are Physiological and Safety needs. Then, there are social needs, and Esteem needs. The top of the hierarchy is Self-Actualization.
Self Actualization has a beautiful definition: the realization or fulfillment of one’s talents and potentialities, especially considered as a drive or need present in everyone. I am the product of a first world country. I am honestly just another girl experiencing first world problems. I am privileged enough to be worrying about Self Actualization. I am lucky enough, blessed enough, to be worried about if I am fulfilling my life’s purpose or not. Feeling “good enough” is not a curse–it is the realization that now, now I can figure out who I am.
Fondue brunch we made for Easter. I’ve never made fondue before, but it was delicious, and I’m in a place where I want to try new things and fall in love with lots and lots and lots of people, places, and things. I suppose fondue is now a new love of mine.